Please pray for the following people, and that the Lord's will be done in their lives; that good will reign through all strife; and that the Holy Spirit increases our faith through testimony of that good.
I need prayer for myself that God will help me grow my faith in Him as it feels weak at times, at times I feel fake, while at other times it feels like the only reason I'm turning to God is I desire my marriage to be restored. I'm filled with doubt and disappointment. I find it hard to let go and let God handle everything. I keep putting my hand into God's work even though I'm trying so hard not to. Before my husband left the marriage 2 months for a relationship he had 30 years ago, I didn't really pray or really open my bibles. We've been married 7 years. Now I pray multiple times a day and do my best to open my Bible to read. I look up things about God on YouTube and the internet. I watch many sermons whenever I get the chance in my day or listen to books. There's a lot of bitterness, strife and damage in our marriage. We both vomited anger and unforgiveness towards each other. We used God as a bandaid fix. We rarely worshipped God together. We are born again Christians but didn't walk with God, nor put God first. I'm seeking God but I feel so alone and sad. I don't how it's suppose to feel to walk with God or to hear God's voice. I don't know where He is trying to lead me. I don't understand the signs or His word. I have people I can talk to but they aren't always available which is understandable since they do have lives of their own. Any prayer or help would be greatly appreciated. I don't want to give up on my marriage even though my husband moved 1500 miles away and says he wants a divorce. I do feel like the enemy is attacking my marriage, him and me.